I had my son Charles when I was 21. I was at UBC studying to be a teacher. My path was supposed to be one thing, and then it became another. It turned out to be exactly the right kind of different.
After Charles, the postpartum hormones threw everything off. PCOS had already been part of my picture for years, and my skin took the first wave of that hit. Then when Charles was about two, I started fertility treatments to try for another baby, and the hormones I had only just started to settle got stirred back up. My skin took the second wave too.
The acne came in first. Then the pigment. Then the reactivity I had never experienced before. I would look in the mirror and not recognize the skin I was in. Some weeks I would not recognize myself.
I tried every line I could get my hands on. Drugstore. Prestige. The dermatology pharmacy stuff that lives behind the counter. I booked every treatment I could find. Facials, peels, microneedling at clinics that did not know what they were doing, microneedling at clinics that did. I walked out of every appointment with a receipt that did not match the result, and quietly added it to the pile of investments that had not worked.
What I needed back then was someone who would look at my skin, tell me what was actually happening, and walk me through a plan that would hold. That person did not exist for me.